It's a new year, it's time for a new direction and new habits. It's time to refine or eliminate at least some of the things that I know desperately needs attention. Last year I held titles that were'nt deserving; one of them was 'humble'.
The truth was I didn't want to hurt someone's feelings by saying what I truly wanted to say. So it appeared as if I showed respect, some patience and humility. Actually, I was fuming on the inside; and in my mind I was getting even with them, I zoned out - went somewhere else [in my mind] while they were still yelping at me instead of talking to me. I'm not violent- but felt I could be at that moment.
So, I'm finding out that- like a vehicle traveling down a highway with no turns in sight; I must exercise patience until there's a clear sign to make a turn off into another direction. It's going to take a lot more practise, a lot more praying and a lot more scripture reciting. Really. I could also look at this as a growth experience or is it just another level of 'humility in disguise?
The truth was I didn't want to hurt someone's feelings by saying what I truly wanted to say. So it appeared as if I showed respect, some patience and humility. Actually, I was fuming on the inside; and in my mind I was getting even with them, I zoned out - went somewhere else [in my mind] while they were still yelping at me instead of talking to me. I'm not violent- but felt I could be at that moment.
So, I'm finding out that- like a vehicle traveling down a highway with no turns in sight; I must exercise patience until there's a clear sign to make a turn off into another direction. It's going to take a lot more practise, a lot more praying and a lot more scripture reciting. Really. I could also look at this as a growth experience or is it just another level of 'humility in disguise?
